Approximately a year and a half ago, I almost committed suicide. If it hadn't been for my two friends who so happened to be in my house with me, I'm not sure I would be here today. My friends' lives were floating along, everything they wanted to happen happening. But mine wasn't. I felt like I was stuck in the mud revving my engine but nothing. The immediate days before and after my near suicide attempt I was in a bad situation with someone. The person wasn't who I thought they were and that pretty much broke the way I saw the world. I thought God didn't care about me. I thought God didn't love me anymore. I figured, if God doesn't even love me, then what am I doing here? The first few months were rough. The first few weeks afterwards were a little hairy. I had to come up with an extensive safety plan with my therapist and a good friend of mine had me promise to call her if I felt like I was going into the bad place. It's been amazing to see how Go...
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Thoughts Of A Slightly Stressed Out, Anxious Millennial In The Time of 2021
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It's been a looong time since I've blogged. I've always been able to better express myself through written word than spoken. You could say writing helps me maintain my sanity. So the title, rice and sandwiches. My parents are immigrants from the Philippines and we grew up eating a lot of rice. I have a rice belly. I didn't dive into more western foods such as potatoes, pasta, and yes, sandwiches, until much later in my formative years. A wonderful surprise for me was that I found out that I really like sandwiches. Like, so many different types of them. Rice and Sandwiches is a celebration, a fusion of two cultures and environments that I have grown up in and that I am both a product of. The past couple of weeks have been the hardest I have faced spiritually. Some days I wake up and it's like I'm living in a nightmare that just will not go away. However, some other days I wake up and it's not like that at all. Some mornings I wake up and I feel joy, peace, ...