Rice And Sandwiches

 Approximately a year and a half ago, I almost committed suicide. If it hadn't been for my two friends who so happened to be in my house with me, I'm not sure I would be here today. My friends' lives were floating along, everything they wanted to happen happening. But mine wasn't. I felt like I was stuck in the mud revving my engine but nothing. The immediate days before and after my near suicide attempt I was in a bad situation with someone. The person wasn't who I thought they were and that pretty much broke the way I saw the world.  I thought God didn't care about me. I thought God didn't love me anymore. I figured, if God doesn't even love me, then what am I doing here? The first few months were rough. The first few weeks afterwards were a little hairy. I had to come up with an extensive safety plan with my therapist and a good friend of mine had me promise to call her if I felt like I was going into the bad place. It's been amazing to see how Go...